thought-less-ness

i've come to learn that it is in the silence where glories are revealed. yesterday while lying in a bed, looking at the whitewashed panelings and newly painted windows i was struck on how my life has come full circle. encased in muscle and sinew, following an aftermath of emotions, i relish the quiet.

i hear the steady beating of a heartbeat. i feel the rhythm of a breath. i see unguarded gazes. and i watch. i wait and see.

i come equipped with an analytical mind. i come equipped with a mind that thinks too much. but at that moment i remain still. the noise in my head is loud and painful. the angry conscience is berating endlessly. but the funny thing is i feel no fear. the girl i used to be would be scrambling for reasons and answers. but with age and maturity, i find peace.

the choices i have made, a lot would never understand. the things i have done many would not condone. but i am loved. i think that is enough. i pray that is enough. because in the end that is all we really have to give and in turn receive.

in the stillness i pray for true love to be revealed. it this it?