In Retrospect

according to www.dictionary.com retrospect is defined as "a contemplation of the past".

i think that's what i do with my writing. to think about what has gone in order to understand what will be. so much has passed by, and the intensity of these activities has left me breathless for a while. it was just a few weeks ago that we were asked to complete a personal strategic plan that i realized, aside from being extremely blessed i am as well extremely lacking in the pursuit of my dreams.

there are so much i want to achieve in a lifetime that i dont even know how long it spans. so in the course of three years i am committing myself to a routine that is rigid with activity and passes in the movement of light. in a few more days i will taste what some have been dreading and some have been looking forward too: graduation. a final good bye to the academic life and an initial submersion into what is called reality. no longer will i be dependent on the successes of my parents or loved ones but will realize the effort and fulfillment it takes to stand on my own two feet. this idea scares but most of all excites me. 

i am looking forward to meeting people. that has always been the merits of going out into the world and stretching my wings. in the next three years i hope to joing the singles apostolate, encounter people at work and join voluntary ogranizations. before settling down i want to at least help in Gawad Kalinga or Habitat for Humanity. to be altruistic, to be selfless, to be an embodiment of agape. that i cannot do without. and to live it out, despite the hectic-ness of my schedules will be a challenge act to balance. 

i faced a "hurdle" of my own today. in the endless pursuit for the ideal job i was especially interested with this one. RCBC was my mom's first employer, it was a job she carried on until after i was born and into my childhood years. i grew up running around her feet at the office, playing clerk while she talked with clients. I was JFK,Jr in the white house, in that iconic photo of him sticking his head out underneath his father's desk. i had a preliminary interview with a panel of five for their officer development program. it is a 12month program that will train and provide opportunities for fresh graduates to enter a junior managerial level upon the termination of the program. a panel of five stranger who would decide upon my future, whether or not i would be deemed suitable for a position in a company that they have been working for. 

i made it.

yup, i just received a text saying i've made it through this morning's interview and now i'm set to undergo their whole day psycho-analytical, intellectual, verbal proficiency test. on march 5, 2009 from 9.00-16.30. a whole day event where i cannot just rest on my laurels but find, somewhere, a competitive advantage that will include me in this class of 15 for the ODP. it scares me, this prospect, because in all honesty I want it. people keep telling me to aim for MNCs or MT positions. but this is a MT positions, however in a Filipino operated company. it may not be the best out there, but it is a ripe opportunity. 

they showed us the culminating project of the class before us, a class that graduated 15 individuals who now are on their way to pave their careers beautifully. it was a video and it played a song that reminded me of this journey i'm about to embark on. 

At the Beginning - Anastacia OST

We were strangers starting out on our journey

Never dreaming what we'd have to go through

Now here we are and I'm suddenly standing

At the beginning with you

No one told me I was going to find you

Unexpected what you did to my heart

When I lost hope you were there to remind me

This is the start

(chorus)

And Life is a road and I want to keep going

Love is a river I want to keep flowing

Life is a road now and forever

A Wonderful journey

I'll be there when the world stops turning

I'll be there when the storm is through

In the end I wanna be standing

At the beginning with you

We were strangers on a crazy adventure

Never dreaming how our dreams would come true

Now here we stand unafraid of the future

At the beginning with you

(chorus)

I knew there was somebody somewhere

Like me alone in the dark

I know that my dream will live on

I've been waiting so long

Nothing's gonna tear us apart

(chorus)

In the end I wanna be standing at the beginning with you