in between.

im caught in between things. like i'm halfway there and halfway not. like i caught a glimpse of heaven but was stopped at the gates.

you see when i look at all you can offer, and all that i have, i wonder if it will ever be actualized. sometimes i pause at the beginning of a dream to see...to catch quicksilver as it may be. like it is in chemistry when you balance out two very volatile elements it's a give or take. i think we both don't know which electron we want to give to each other, nor do we know how to accept it in the daily orbit of our lives. we've taken the first step...the "yes" part. but the process, however tedious it may be is a very challenging uphill climb.

everything in my life right now is TRANSITION. from the quiet reflective momentum it was a few months back everything is on hyper drive and i'm gasping here. that is not to say i have not enjoyed the ride, i have immensely. but i guess it's only hitting me now how fast we've come to where we are now and how fast we are moving.

what is happening here?

it may be disgustingly cheesy but it reminds me of HSM2 where Gabriella and Troy we're having their off moment. how things, after they've taken their course, ended the way it did.

parallelisms.

Gabriella:
Troy...Listen...
I gotta say what's on my mind,
Cause something about us,
Doesn't seem right, these days,
Life keeps getting in the way,
Whenever we try,
Somehow the plan is always rearranged,
It's so hard to say,
But I gotta do what's best for me,
You'll be okay...

Chorus:
I've gotta move on and be who I am,
I just don't belong here,
I hope you understand,
We might find our place in this world someday,
But atleast for now...
I gotta go my own way.

Gabriella:
Don't wanna leave it all behind,
But I get my hopes up,
And I watch them fall every time,
Another colour turns to grey,
And it's just to hard to watch it all,
Slowly fade away,
I'm leaving today,
Cause I gotta do what's best for me,
You'll be okay...

Chorus:
I've gotta move on and be who I am,
I just don't belong here,
I hope you understand,
We might find our place in this world someday,
But atleast for now,
I gotta go my own way.

Troy:
What about us?
What about everything we've been through?

Gabriella:
What about trust?

Troy:
You know I never wanted to hurt you.

Gabriella:
What about me?

Troy:
What am I supposed to do?

Gabriella:
I gotta leave but I'll miss you...

I've gotta move on and be who I am,
Troy: Why do you have to go?
I just don't belong here,
I hope you understand,
Troy: I'm trying to understand.
We might find a place in this world someday,
But atleast for now,
Troy: I want you to stay.
I gotta go my own way.

I've gotta move on and be who I am,
Troy: What about us?
I just don't belong here,
I hope you understand,
Troy: I'm trying to understand.
We might find a place in this world someday,
But atleast for now,
I gotta go my own way.

I gotta go my own way,
I gotta go my own way.

i think i'm the one who isn't used to this. i think i'm the one who has to do the changing. i hope you do understand that this is pretty much as new for me as it is for you and well im not perfect.