confused

he told me he loved me. he told me he was sorry. he told me he cared. wrapped in his arms i almost believed him. having him hold me that way again made everything crumble down. those words were words i have been waiting to hear. i should have felt relief but all i really was...was numb. he promised to never hurt me again. he promised to never cause me to cry. but there's something inside of me that couldnt believe him. there something inside of the that wouldn't believe him. i wanted to. oh god how much i wanted to. but at that moment i felt nothing.

i cried. because this was what i was waiting for...for so long. and now that it is finally here, it has finally come true, it wasnt even special. i looked at his eyes. wishing to see contrition and hope. i dont know if my own eyes were playing with my feelings because there was nothing but brown pools leading to infinity. he wiped my tears. pushed my hair aside. sweet and gentle gestures. but they were ghosts whispers of what i felt inside.

is there something wrong in this picture? is there something wrong with me?