To face fear

I think my mind is revolving around one thing these days: work.

Early on this year I remember bragging to my dad about the things i would do once i finally cash in my first pay check. I had so many thing I wanted to buy. I dreamed about spending my it on traveling, or clothes, or something else. I had and still have so many dreams. Of course the idealistic facet of me would think about all the great and amazing things.

However I've fallen down into reality.

Two job interviews next week. And once more I derive my strength from the words of Paolo Coelho.

It is necessary to run risks, to follow certain paths and to abandon others. No one can make a choice without feeling fear.
( Brida )

He's right. A painful truth. It is necessary to compromise to be able to get the best. And if there's one thing i've come to know greatly it's compromise. I guess this is an essential part of maturity. Funny how this quote reminds me of Robert Frost's poem of "The Road Not Travelled". It's perfect timing that I remember his words especially at this point of the journey.

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth.

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same.

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.