The Choice

Grey's Anatomy

Patient: I gave a kidney for him and he still hasn't made a choice
Christina: He hasn't asked about you or called. I think he's made a choice.
Patient: But I gave a kidney for him...I gave a kidney...oh my god...oh my god... [cries]

The choices we make in this lifetime are the risks we gamble with in our life. Our choices, the way we react to situations, are what dictates the effects it will have to the rest of things...the repercussions. Tomorrow is the aftermath of today.

This particular episode of Grey's reminds me of the choices and sacrifices I've done. The things I've said, or the things I have left unsaid are what compromise the regrets I have now. I am dealing with my choices. I dont have an exact process on how to come to terms with things. I usually face it with anger, then acceptance. Hurtful words are always the eve or dawning of understanding. I am brimming with them at the moment, as I am placed in this position of trying to make sense of what really is nothing.

There is. There isn't. Two faces of a coin, and yet you cant decide. Despite what is staring at you, despite what is plainly seen, you choose to be blind. I am not the only one here who is dense, I am not the only one here looking at things naively. You as well. I am trying with all I can, to see from your point of view, but it is difficult because the aggression and hard headedness eminating from you is too thick a fog to penetrate. This is a two way street, not a one way projectile.

I have exhausted the words, done every action and yet you believe otherwise. I have nothing left to say, and I hope silence can acomplish what noise could not.