corinthians

i have always loved the way the words of Paul in Corinthians has washed over me. like a soothing balm that takes away the pains and sorrows of my heart. or sometimes like the reassuring hand of a lover's caress or the supportive prodding of a worried parent.

i read Corinthians once more last night. in the shadow of the day's events and wrapped around a thick blanket i allowed myself to be comforted and renewed.

But God's grace has made me what I am and his grace to me was not wasted
(1Cor15:10)

for quite sometime now i have been partially lost in the worries of my life. i have learned to tune out what is right, and act instead based on gut. i had forgotten that there was a time in my life that Providence has smiled upon me. i read this verse over and over again trying to make sense of the confusion at war within.

my life has been blessed as of late. and it is sad to think that i have been ungrateful. because i have. and because i am.

a friend told me that there is a new aura surrounding me. it is lighter, funner, more joyous. the smile on my face is genuine and the glow is effervescent.but i have been warned.

the body that is 'planted' will ruin and decay,
but it is raised to a life that cannot be destroyed.
when the body is 'planted' it is without honor
but it is raised in glory
when the body is 'planted' it is weak,
but when it is raised it is powerful
(1Cor15:42-44)

i want to be raised. i want to transcend the planted-ness of my soul and become glorified.

You broke the night like the sun
And healed my heart
With Your great love
Any trouble I couldn't bear,
You lifted me
Upon Your shoulders

Love that's stronger
Love that covers sin,
And takes the weight of the world

I love You, all of my hope is in You
Jesus Christ, take my life,
Take all of me

You stand on mountain tops with me
With You I walk through the valleys
You gave Your only Son for me
Your grace is all I rely on

I love You so, and I give up
My life to say,
I need You so,
My every thing, Oh Lord
(Take all of me, Hillsong United)