the difference time makes

time can change a lot of things in people. i believe that. time heals all wounds, as they say. do you think it creates them as well?

four years ago i entered the confines of the Ateneo. i entered it a loner, knowing only a handful of people. the first year was a revelation of sorts. it brought liberation and freedom to this province schooled girl. outings between blockmates were treasured events because i felt deprived of this while growing up. i met people from different backgrounds, enjoyed laughs with people who i was getting know and shared defeats with different classes.

as i leave this school, and the people i have come to know the one thing i'm coming to regret is this foreboding feeling that i'm leaving Ateneo a loner once more. my schedule has prevented me to spend more time with these people and i feel time apart has not made hearts grow fonder. the opposite is true, apparently i am very replaceable. block outings, which i used to treasure, are events i dont get invited to often. stories shared seem so foreign to me because i'm not there. laughs and snickers are distant to me because i cant relate at all.

this isnt a drama blog, or a form of complaint. it's just those things that are "sayang". four years down the drain i think. four years of memories.

sayang